It had been a long time since she'd seen him. A very long time. Staring down at the blank paper infront of her, she heaved a shaky sigh. This was possibly the third or fourth time this had happened. A seperation from that man whom she loved so much; who loved her back. The very meaning in her life. She had wanted to spend it with him, to be there always...but those wants meant nothing anymore. But as time went on, seasons passed, she had started to realize it was never going to happen. Ever.
The paper was still spotless. She didn't know what to write. She'd been looking at it for an hour now, and still nothing. But this was important and she had to get it done before she did anything else. A letter for him. To tell him how much she loved him. How much she cared and how much she missed him. And how much she would miss him. Her hand was quivering and the quill she used unsteady.
"Dear Udo..." she started off, biting her lip. It was hard to do this, knowing this was all she'd ever get to say in the end. Hell, she didn't even know if this would ever reach him. But her heart and mind would be clear, knowing she had done it.

"Dear Udo, I miss you. Its boring here without you...Raven and Watt and Thais...everyone has been the same as always. Goofing off, dying and the like. Sometimes I smile, but sometimes I don't. I'm aching inside without you."

She could feel the tears coming now.

"But if you move on...as much as it hurts me to think about it...I hope you will be happy."

She didn't know what else to put anymore. So she signed her name and wrote one final line. Then she strolled over to the bookshelf and pulled out a box. She opened it, humming without real emotion, pulling out the gorgeous white dagger from inside. She returned to her seat and glanced one more time at the letter.

With a hearbroken smile, and quivering hands, she thrust the dagger through her chest, piercing her heart.
And as the darkness came in, all she could think about was what she had written.

"I love you."